12pm Thursday and I see a large spider crawling up the shutters.
I am procrastinating in all absolution, partly because I'm just like that, and partly because I don't feel any push to work.
The semester's coming to an end! All final assignments will be done with by next Tuesday. And then what happens next?
Photography :DD
A part of me - okay, more like almost all of me wants to move on to the next semester as quickly as possible - but a part of me also says hey, slow down, are you sure you want to move on with this. Sure sure for sure. Sure sure you want to continue this course and everything in it?
Ehh, I tak tau lah.
I've been doing some comparisons. SAM students are currently sitting for their finals and tearing their hair out over Math and such, and I tried to picture myself doing so. I couldn't. Augh there is no way I could go back to textbook learning, to numbers and f(x) and chemical equations which I cannot seem to write anymore. Yet at the same time, looking at my current assignments and the way I handle my deadlines, I'm not entirely sure this is what I'm cut out for.
Maybe I'm just too lazy.
Okla that part is 99.999999% true.
Buuut, a little nagging voice in my head (among other nagging voices - maybe I'm schizophrenic! TEH HORROR) tells me I could be doing other things, I might be doing other things, I might like other things more than this, I might be doing something else and find that I love it so much I don't want to do anything else for a long long time and that's what I want because honest to God I don't quite feel that way about DESIGN and what I've been doing the past 3 months, or make that, the past 9 months.
I suppose I just haven't discovered what it is that they call passion.
Or maybe I have. Actually, I probably have, in bits and pieces, and probably in areas I don't excel in enough to survive.
I do not want to waste any more money, nor time.
I don't think anyone wants to waste money or time.
(Anyone being people who realise how rapidly things can change.)
